And so, i find myself back at the point i try so hard to avoid. I told myself never to return again, but it still keeps happening. Over, and over, and over. And everytime it does, it just burns a bigger hole in my heart. I just don't know what to do anymore.. someone please tell me. Past experiences have taught me nothing but anguish and disappointment. I don't want to live through those again. It took me so long to get to where i am again, but now i find another trial looming before me. I am now at a path which splits left and right.

On the left, the road continues evenly without any obstruction. However, it might not lead me to where i want it to. It may eventually does so, but i do not know just how long it will continue before i finally get there.

Towards the right, i find a huge crater in the middle of the road, with no way of getting over.. .. ..except for a lone bridge spanning across the diameter of the hole. There is a sign manning the bridge which reads 'HOPE'.

If i picked left, it would mean me ignoring the signs, the experiences accumulated thus far and leaving everything else behind.

If i picked right, i would have to cross the bridge. If 'HOPE' is real, this path i'm taking would lead me out, to a destination i have been seeking since the start of my journey. But if 'HOPE' turns out to be false, the bridge would break, as they all had before, and i would fall down into the abyss of sorrows, where i have to begin my slow ascend all over again.

Once again, it has come to this.

I do not want to make the wrong choice...


..neither do i want to be alone.



-noosyrcdoogadeeni-

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The Nut within The Shell:

Fact #8:

Behind every smile, there is a teardrop.

Behind every laughter, there is something i cry about.

I can appear strong and be there for anyone, but sometimes, i need someone to lean on too..



"The happiest person you see in front of you, may just turn out to be the most saddest person in front of you"

-Evon



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